Deal with it...me?

Every time I make a new project, I end up working on it by myself. That's bad. I'm worried people might misuse my code, leak it, and so on. This has happened more than once: recently, weeks ago, months ago, a year ago, even longer.

I usually start projects with a small team/few friends. We all do a bit of work, but after a few days, it's just me putting in the effort. I'm the maintainer, the collaborator, and the owner. I don't like being an owner. That's why I used to join other people's projects insteadᅳI'm not great with new ideas due to my creativity blocks, so it's easier to be part of something that's already started. But, somehow, I still end up doing the most work, shipping the most updates, and eventually working alone.

I understand that people are busy or they don't share the same passion as I do. When I start a project, I don't force the team members to work on it. But when I'm a part of other people's projects and they force the team to work, it bothers me (it's like I'm being treated as a slave or something, I have no idea, I know it's stupid). When I make my projects FOSS and someone wants to contribute (via GitHub), I feel like I'm smarter than everyone elseᅳwhich isn't really true.

I really want to collaborate, but I'm also worried because of the risks. So I don't give my work to anyone, which isolates me. It's probably just a self-preservation thing. I want to help, but the cycle keeps going, and in the endᅳit doesn't even matter. Maybe I should talk to a therapist. A therapist needs a therapist.